GOD DOES LOVE ME! (a better me journal entry 3/30/78)

Since Poppa died, things have been happening that are life changing and mind boggling, and ah the joy I feel...along with, the "girl get it together" "come on baby, you can do it" "WOMAN, IT IS TIME TO GROW UP AND BE GROWN!" My dreams have been coming true-literally-right before my eyes-and I can feel the goose bumps raising even now, as I write...I got the tissue on deck. If your heart is open and anything life mine, you might want to get yours. This will be short, but tear jerking-ling sweet!

I thought this last year would be hard to breathe for me, but surprisingly it has been one of the best years of my life! The death of someone as close as a parent (rather closely netted or not) has an affect on your makeup. At least for mine it did. And, this past April my Uncle (the only other person in the delivery room with my mother besides the doctor and nurse the night I was born) also transitioned. Two more ancestors in one year! I know it is only by the grace of GOD that I can say, them dying has made me stronger. Wiser. Ready to live! Recently I had a talk with myself...I do it from time to time just to be sure myself is where she should be...and I believe walking away from that honest conversation, knowing I was walking into my purpose on purpose is again, one of the best things to ever happen to me. Poetry and Spoken Word is still a wonderful outlet for me! Sometimes, I get on stage not knowing what I will say, just knowing that I need to breathe and someone else does too...

In the last 4 months, I've been inviting to as Orator to over 6 engagements, 4 features, and get this...while in California this past October, I met an amazing 10 year poet and was able to give to her, her very own 1st journal! Like me passing on the gift of writing to another girl...how blessed is this journey I'm on?!? And just last night, while at a set I hugged 10 people who all love that my words have in some way given to them a since of healing, and life. One of the people I hugged, a fan and more importantly a friend offered to sponsor my entire studio cost and all that it will take to get my album done! I mean I've known GOD loves me, but guess what, ME, GOD DOES LOVE ME! So, here's to a better ME! Even, if none of the above happened, I knew there was love. However somethings happen just so you can know there is nothing too big for GOD therefore, nothing should keep you from being a better you! *This is the talk I had with myself* Spring time marks a new year for me... This is the first winter that I can remember, I didn't dread it coming...I'm so ready to go into hybridnation! <---yes a new word HYBRID-NATION! I'm going in and for the green this winter...and when spring hits, I'm reaching the nations!


love and pray me through it...

Marie Chanté